12:02am, dead silence only me and my thoughts.
Overthinking/brain fuzzing; Did my 1000% for this influencer on X in anticipation of getting a tip, made memes, aped in, posts... Nothing
Then I stopped
The universe wasn't done with punishing me because just when I gave up, a ping enters;
'......liked your post '
The small ray of hope about to diminish illuminated again, this time like a full on stadium light activated on a night match.
Then the next day I continued
' This is it man you're def getting it, you're finally gonna get the balance to change that your shitty gadget '
But nothing, this time it got worse, not even a glance.
' yh he prolly didn't see it, his notis must be buzzing like a 9- way fireworks struck on new year's...'
Or I'm just unlucky.
Yh the latter seemed reasonable given past encounters, my predicament with mother luck lol.
Or maybe I'm just overthinking it, I tend to do that alot lately; like when ski told me in gc
"your own no pass $5 wins, better get your bags up"
Obviously it was a joke, others in gc reacted "😂" to it.
Or maybe not
I started overthinking
' that kinda true tho, how am I ever going to have a headway in this space given this streak... '
Took me all day to overthink that btw
Anyway what was the lil mission again, oh yh;
' change your shitty device 'cause it be taking about the time I used to brush mi teeth just to open twitter '
No fault on the influencer part tho, man did great things for the comm and I did make a few Xs aping his heavenly lore token.
...it's all me man
All GAs engaged; nada
All clips submitted; rejected
Lol my intergalactic fight with luck which looks like I ain't winning anytime soon.
You know that popular saying
" You can't be unlucky for 365 days" (or is it 366 I dunno man I'm overthinking again)
Miself might actually be the first to win a Guinness world record on that and not in a good way, yg what I'm tryna say
"NOBODY'S COMING TO SAVE YOU"
Then fine I'll do it myself. Back to the drawing board this time a clean slate.
I dunno how but I'll overcome pon dis, Tis I promise myself.
“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.”
-Confucius