AI stole my dopamine.
Building things with AI doesn't create the same effect as when you make something yourself. At the beginning it was amazing, but now it's too easy - your body won't reward you with dopamine.
vuln: so I keep writing blog posts about things I'm worried that AI might remove, like the joy of discovery, the struggle of articulation to explain what you mean, the habit of exercising your own mind, and even just the desire to, like, make things yourself. and I just can't seem to find it in myself to publish it, and I’m starting to understand why. like, I don't want to spend my time better at describing the loss. I want the writing to identify something worth preserving instead, and then maybe to try building towards it. I want to write about, “here is a human capacity that I think matters, and what would technology look like if we tried to strengthen it”. and I think my... I just don't want to be someone who just complains, you know. need to have something to show alongside the tell.