In December, I had my 20-week full anatomy scan.
@jonwu_ held my hand tightly while the technician squeezed jelly over my belly. As she performed the ultrasound, we looked at Baby Love Wu on a big screen.
There everything was. A brain. A spine. Kidneys. Fingers. Two little ears. Two tiny kicking feet that, come April, I would be able to squeeze ever so gently.
And finally, according to the technician: “A very strong heart.”
We listened intently. The sound of our baby’s heartbeat took over the room, and I was overwhelmed with joy. Fast, powerful little thumps. I wanted to listen to it forever.
The scan was unlike anything I have ever experienced before. It was a miracle.
Over my first two trimesters, I learned that pregnancy can be mysterious, full of surprises, and scary. For the first time in my life, I was no longer in control of my body, hormones, and even emotions. If I wasn’t nauseous, I was beyond tired.
I had to learn how to say no to opportunities, how to smile in sponsor meetings despite feeling seasick, and how to navigate confusing medical test results.
There were moments I felt anxious, upset, and terrified. Until the 20-week appointment, I had little confirmation our baby’s body was developing correctly.
But after seeing our baby at 20 weeks, I internalized something:
I was born to do this.
Born to create. And to create even in the face of uncertainty. Even after this scan, there is still a lot of uncertainty left on the now life-long journey of motherhood.
And while there are a few variables in my control, I ultimately have to trust both the process and that I am doing my best.
As I reflect on these past few months, I realized my motherhood journey feels a lot like my founder journey. Dare I say, motherhood is the ultimate founder mode.
With SheFi, my first baby, I thought “How hard can it be?” With pregnancy, I had the same thought.
The answer: very hard. But very worth it.
As a founder, I experience the highs, lows, moments of fear – and an immense amount of trust in myself despite my fears. Would people sign up? Would sponsors support us? How do I grow this business? I have worked diligently, day after day, giving SheFi my all to make it a success.
But the uncertainty never goes away.
Similar stressful questions pop up during pregnancy. Is my baby healthy? Am I doing all the right things? Is this normal? But all I can do is try my best – and continue to trust.
I’m doing that for both SheFi and my pregnancy.
I had always wanted to be a mother, and my dream is finally coming true while continuing to build SheFi. Many of you have already met Baby Love Wu while I was 10 weeks pregnant in Singapore, or while I taught Season 12 and felt the first kicks. My pregnancy is the reason I couldn’t go to Bangkok, and it’s why I’ve had to put even more trust in my team.
But every worthwhile journey in your life will come with uncertainty. I had no idea, after all those late nights making educational content and sending sponsor emails, that my hard work would grow SheFi to over 7,000 members worldwide.
And every woman and non-binary person who joins SheFi is embarking on a transformative, uncertain journey of their own, in an effort to learn new skills and reinvent their futures.
Of course the unknown is a little scary. But we can do it scared.
And now, SheFi is about to have a little sibling.
Baby Love Wu, launching April 2025.